RUN: Lista

So, I’m sitting here in the airport.
I arrived a little early (4hrs in fact) because Cole could only take a half day and we wanted to enjoy every last minute of each other’s company. But now Cole is gone and here I am sitting at my gate paging through People Espanol and reflecting. As I turn each page I can’t help but to notice a slight tremble and I know that there are only two reasons why this could be happening.
The 1^st-
WHY I decided to scrub my entire house from TOP to BOTTOM and wash every piece of laundry I own BEFORE starting my 5hr packing marathon-your guess is a good as mine... but I did and I felt it the next morning when I could hardly get out of bed. Get as sore as you can before a twelve hour trip in an exceptionally uncomfortable economy class seat on Continental Sarah. SMART!
The 2^nd-
I think my hands are shaking because of nerves but I still maintain that I AM NOT NERVOUS! (Although my newly acquired forehead acne would suggest otherwise) How could I NOT be nervous? I’m leaving a job, friends, my life partner, and life as I know it to move to the other side of the ocean. However I really just don’t feel that nervous. I almost feel calm... but maybe this is the calm before the storm.
I was once in a Tornado. Did you know that?
Yep, my senior year of college at KSU. The storm tore through our town and destroyed parts of campus, houses, and caused a lot damage. Our house wasn’t touched but I remember sitting in the basement as the tornado raged through Manhattan. Earlier in the afternoon it had been hailing and raining but at one point in the late afternoon everything just stopped. The sky turned an eerie Wizzard of OZ green and it became abnormally quiet. And then the train came-- That’s what it sounded like. It sounded as if a GIANT freight train was headed straight for you, but you didn’t know from which direction it was coming from. CHUG CHUG CHUG!
Maybe that’s what is going on in my life right now. I was chugging a long and then this opportunity came and I decided to jump the tracks. I’m TOTALLY of course right now; I have no idea where I will live, what I will eat, where I will go, or who I’ll meet, but I couldn’t feel happier. So I’ll wait here for another 3.5hrs and then I’m off. I’ll take my 90lbs of luggage and jump feet first into this new life... Calm as can be. No estoy nerviosa (I’m not nervous)... ESTOY LISTA (I’m ready)!