I've realized that learning a new language as an adult is like a labyrinth. Initially the idea of learning a second language can feel unbearably daunting. Furthermore, once you’re finally in the thick of the process it can seem utterly confusing because you encounter countless road blocks and sometimes even dead ends, but you always know that there is a way out---a finish line; fluency.
As a Program Manager I had the opportunity to correspond in Spanish by email and hold conference calls where I would ramble out a little here and there, but now I'm about to enter into a WHOLE NEW ballgame. I know that the only way for me to become fluent is to be totally immersed in the Spanish language and lifestyle once again; one semester abroad was not enough time for me and I am eager to return to Spain. However, I am utterly FREAKED OUT as well. It's kind of funny for me that my language acquisition journey has felt like a labyrinth because the first movie I actually watched and understood in Spain happened to be Pan's Labyrinth. This movie was a turning point in my own labyrinth--I finally understood what was going on! I just knew that an usher with a big bright flashlight was going to pop up behind me and admonish me at any minute for all of the light I was giving off. It felt as though there was a GIANT light bulb above my head because I experienced an illumination like no other that evening. I had to be a major distraction for the other patrons trying to enjoy their movie experience. I got it. I REALLY got it. No pasa nada, yo entiendo!
I believe that my passion for learning and teaching children will make my experience more meaningful not only for me, but the students I will be working with on a daily basis but I'm still scared as H-E-double hockey sticks. Nonetheless, I look forward to returning to Spain not only to escape my own personal labyrinth and reach my goal of fluency but to also to participate in a program that promotes language and cultural advancement.
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